loved, wanted, so I push you
away because I want it far
too much. That little, needy
child inside of me with
outstretched arms and
tearstained cheeks is
the scariest, darkest
part of me.
Does he kiss your eyelids in the morning when you start to raise your head?
And does he sing to you incessantly from the space between your bed and wall?
Does he walk around all day at school with his feet inside your shoes?
Looking down every few steps to pretend he walks with you.
James Gandolfini with his son by Inez & Vinoodh
Mournful Bo-note: James Gandolfini is one of my favourite actors. His talent & ability to take reigns of a role & infuse it with equal parts vulnerability & control was constantly mesmerizing. I found beauty & wonderment in every performance. Losing him has created a deep ache. He’ll be tremendously missed.